Its been so long

I post here, because I know that no one will ever read this. This house is empty, literally, life is kinda boring right now, I do not know who I can talk to anymore. Not saying I have been hurt (recently) but I am just so lost and confused right now. Nothing at school is going right for me, even though I tell everyone things are fine. Thats my line "Everything is fine" I use it for everything, but even at time when things are fine they really are not. I am scared, confused, alone. I have done nothing with my life, I have nothing to show, if I were to die right now would anyone know? The maggots would feat on my corpse as it rotted and molted, chunks of flesh hitting the ground decaying and molded. Life was so much better a few years ago, than it is today, when stress, regret, madness all become a daily routine, wonder when I can find the end of this tunnel of self loathing and pity. Not having to hide my real self from anyone. Not to sound like i am completely sad or thinking thoughts of suicide, get those thoughts away as I will never think such things. But boredom has completely settled in, making me wonder when the fun will begin. Even though I am ignored until someone wants me to fetch them something I had people around me to keep me company, now alone I have this house and silence, the maddening silence.

The Dungeons and the Dragons

This is exactly what happens when you play.

I have a computer BITCHEN!

I have a computer and it shits awesome! Yeah you wish you had a computer that worked in your room!

Why is it?

Miriam and me got to talkin yesterday in the car as we sat infront of Wal-Mart and the conversation was about how come health food is so damn expensive yet everything drenched in oil and fat and death are so cheap. If I want a Big Mac I have to pay around 3 dollars but if I want to eat anything organic I have to drive miles away to find a farm or go to the super market and buy from the organic isle and pay about twice as much as I would for that Big Mac. We both find this strange since obesity is one of the biggest (no pun intended) problems in America, and yet no-one has done anything, well almost no one. Some place in America have gotten rid of Trans fats which I think is a good step in the right direction.

But we still need to take it further and have more healthy options in our life, more places need to be like subway or at least what Wendy's is trying to do with there healthy line up a great salads and delicious chicken substitutes. This just really gets me upset to think about later how many people will have heart problems and many will die from clog arteries, some will die young while others die old and slow. This was just my thoughts on this, felt like I needed a way to convey this message out into the public.

Team Deathblows new leader.

Its official I am now Team Deathblows new leader, our old leader who went by the alias Mage Master has left to go pursue a good gaming life in Magic the Gathering (M:TG). Since I was second in command in a long line, well a previously long line of members who left, for some time am now the leader of the team. I hope I don't mess this up, I really want to help the team and make it grow, even make it noticeable by all the other teams I always hear about at the card shops that I go to.

Now what bugs me about this is that someone has to replace me as battle commander in case I leave the team, I already stated that there will be a event to decide whom the new Battle Commander will be, we go by ranks. Highest Rank is currently held by me Deathblow General, second highest is Battle Commander, and next rank is Deathblow Knights, last rank is Foot Soldiers. These ranks were created by our previous leader Mage Master or double M as I called him. This I suppose is the first chronicle in my Leadership days of Team Deathblow!

Finally I got this to work again.

What the hell was wrong you ask? Well it was simple I had a translator on that would turn any title I wrote from English to Hindi. Which in turn made them come out in question marks and other weird dialect but its all good now. So now that I have been on hiatus I finally can return to updating on a regular/irregular basis.

Squirrels In My Pants

I want squirrels in my pants, so that I can have phat moves like that.